Into the Eye of Depression
Free Verse — but not recommended for those who are depressed.
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(Trigger warning)
Depression is hanging around
Hello, old dark nemesis
I hate you so much
You’re here again already
Messing with my thoughts
Making me think
Or maybe even realize
It is all loss from here
Nothing but loss
One thing after another
All the winning has been done
And now it’s just loss and losing
My winning days are over
I can’t do what I loved to do best
Which I did well enough to show off
Doing the stuff I did better than most
Ah, I was good at some things
I had a few gifts
And many blessings
But always I had this
This black, black, hideous thing
It sucks at me until all joy is lost
Forgotten
Now losing
Losing my quick mind
My ability to find just the right word
Losing my strong fit body
Being left with a saggy and strange one
Losing my grandchildren because
They’re almost all grown up
And their happiest place
Isn’t at my house anymore
They were so adorable
And outgrown me
Without me knowing or noticing
It was never their place
To make me happy
Though I drew happiness from them
Life is the same but never again the same
My daddy is gone some years now
My mother has gone crazy
And it’s making me crazy, too
I think she will outlive me
